Monday, March 27, 2023

Weird Weird happening

 Today weird thing happened to me,

First I message a person, and I remembered his name I wrote on the message app but I ended up sending the message to another person. Probably I didn't pressed enter or something

Then I dreamed of seeing a white teenage girl that stayed at another person's house, adults. She was being abused that she often "ordered" to bathe in a pool (like a baptism pool) in front of her room before being allowed to do another thing. Probably it's a custom, and she asked me to help her, she gave her hand and I reached out to hold it, her flesh was half dead. Her room got two doors front and back, the back leads to the main house, the front leads to the baptism pool. Yes that's the front and back somehow. 

The second dream I was taken by my father to a relative in my hometown, he was a very old man with wide bone structure and square face, tall and with full hair not bald. Like those in mafia movies. But now he's rather unhealthy and often wet himself. His daughter said that even the curtains became yellow because of this. But I couldn't remember who they are, they lived in a narrow house with cement floors it seems in the dream, I just feel familiar but I don't know them. 

The relatives of those families had another house, so I stayed the night there. I checked out a computer where I stayed the night and opened up there's a game. In the game you could log into another world where there were royalties and dinosaurs. The dinosaurs were smart enough to be intelligent but they are not really as smart as humans. They were used for hard labor and often treated unfairly, like slavery but that would be the worst case, but also that's pretty often. I got transported in the middle of a bookstore, like a modern bookstore and I remembered vaguely that somehow we could choose a royalty faction to use or a couple of royalties, or something like that. Then I recommended the game in a recommendation center, only I recommended royalties that's administering the bookstore.

Then the man who owned the room went in, and I apologized for overusing his computer, he appeared a little uncomfortable but seems like that's an ok thing as to be expected with people... The next morning I'm supposed to go home but I helped out the daughter who tried to promote the family's supermarket to university students near the house. It was a big project that she's in, it involves her whole family. As the people were trying to get into the car, I had trouble figuring out which car to jump into since they were heading towards different spots. 

After all those weird things, I stayed up for a little and this thing came into my head:

What if visceral fats were like amyloid beta, trying to protect the body from stomach acid or fungis or other things that's to be protected from?  

Sunday, March 12, 2023

Feeling of Authenticity v.04

I know there are a lot of people who have done good, but can't be satiated with assurance from other people that they are good. They keep on wanting those praises like it's food. 

Try this, expose your negative and let people criticize you. Truthful side about you that people would criticize or dismiss, and when you're dismissed, thrown away, you'd emerge as a person instead of a persona

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If people didn't throw you away then you'd still be authentic, but my suggestion is... when you could be yourself and you'd be yourself, that hole in your heart would say I'm full.

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One would say, I'd just have close friends and family to be authentic in front of. That works as well and safer, but still everytime you went out of that circle and you'd have to be a pure persona, that's a consumption upon the state of your person. It's unhealthy. 

The moral of this post is, we as human beings should be more reasonable towards other people. That's just

But lying to have your way in is not just, better to dismiss rather than to lie. True acceptance lies in honesty. Expect a world where acceptance is not expected, we shouldn't be afraid but be prepared